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[25 May 2007|08:16pm] |
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....in other words, i am back home in Leeds.
At least till monday.
All my first year work is done....although i am far from sure that any of it will achieve a pass. I will seriously feel lucky to get a third from the first year.
I am, however, considering a change of course. You see, journalism is OK, but its so specific...i feel like if i am going to get a degree in journalism i better make damn sure i want a career as a journalist. To be honest i dont really know if thats what i want, journalism in reality is a lot more dull than i thought it would be. This is especilly the case when you start out as a graduate, its all "cat got stuck up tree" and various other brain numbing local news stories. Judging by the giant size of my classes i also guess that its a saturated profession, so to get to the top you have to be damn good.
History is better, but really not as inspiring as it could be.....i love all things historical but my modules are all so bloody modern....for example last semester i did "immigration and identity in post war Britain". POST WAR. I did an essay on the 1990s for gods sake.....there are no ancient history modules and barely any pre-war modules! Anyway, i have studied the bloody second world war so much already.
So instead i been looking for an alternative, and may have found one in the form of a course called Visual and Material Culture. Its a mixture of history, art, media and film studies...all the stuff i like!
I am off to speak to the tutor for the course on Tuesday.
If i pass first year i dont have to repeat the year cos i am changing course, they just transfer the credits.
I figure since i dont really have a clue what i want to do for a job when i finish uni i might as well just spend 3000 pounds a year on doing something i like!
Other things going on include my ever increasing stress about how i am going to transport all my stuff from halls to home and back to the new how in kingston over the summer. Dads car failed its MOT (this is not a surprise as its a clapped out vintage car from about 1950 lol). It is apparently going to cost a lot to make it road worthy again and until he decides to cough up he aint driving no where, let alone all the way down to Kingston! I may have to resort to putting most of it in storage or something just as bloody stupid.
Oh, and to top off annoying life problems....i have to reapply for my student loan. ARGH NOT AGAIN!
The student loans company is the biggest sham ever, they lose your forms, pay you loans stupidly late and REPEATEDLY demand evidence of household income....even though you have already sent them 532 P60s that week!!!!
Worse still - this year its all online. FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC....they cant coap with paper forms, god knows what it will be like when its all electronical....
I'll stop now as i risk sounding like that old man from One Foot in the Grave.
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so yes, once above problems are sorted i can lie back and enjoy my summer....oh, apart from the fact i will probs have to get a job in order to pay off my massive overdraft.LOL.
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| picspam! |
[20 May 2007|05:12pm] |
In order to put off doing my essay i have decided to share random pics with you all...
( pics ahoy! )
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| Today i am bored.... |
[20 May 2007|03:19pm] |
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....so me and Ben decided to look through the lonely hearts in the sunday newspaper.
We made this:
my, what a treat.
The green giant is my fave haha
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[19 May 2007|11:32am] |
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yeah i have had a crazy, mostly intoxicated, few days!
Thursday night ended up seeing a band called Art Brut in Kingston...they were OK, not really heard them before. I got shitfaced on snakebite so the rest of the night in the bar is just a blur of dancing, shouting and a little vomit. Got outside and met Amy. Amy is/was my flatmates (Eve) girlfriend but the apparently split up that day. Amy invited us back to her halls for drinks of gin....how could i say no to free gin?! I got there spent the whole night talking to random drama students who Amy knew and drank lots of gin. Then (cue stardom) the lead singer of Art Brut turned up with one of Amys flatmates and started drinking all our gin....i did not speak to him much, but apparently i shouted "your only big in Germany, you are fucking shit!". I am such a twat haha. Mr Art Brut then went off to fuck Amys flatmate.
So that was random.
Amy walked me home and i callapsed in my bed.
I woke up very confused. I lost my mobile BUT i did wake up in some girls jacket....so that can go on ebay since i dont have a clue whos jacket it is lol.
As a result of Thursday i spent yesterday in bed and only braved going outside to buy a new phone.
Today i am been draged to Barfly in Camden to see Eves brothers band (who are apparently amazing) but i reckon they will be shit lol.
I really need to stay in and do my final assignment which is in for Monday.
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[16 May 2007|12:16pm] |
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spent yet another night in uni doing essays.
got to bed at 6a.m AGAIN, woke up at 11a.m to hand in a history essay - thank god its done and in on time!
three down, just one more module to do and all my first year work is done!
I am so tired....but want to wait till tonight before i go to sleep so i dont fuck my body clock up to much.
arrrrrgh....my work is all so SHIT, i am so going to fail!
Have to finish helping put shit up in the art studios today, cant be fecking arsed.
I'm going for a shower and a nice big mug of Yorkshire Tea, that will make it all better :)
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[15 May 2007|05:19am] |
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5:20A.M
I AM STILL IN THE LIBARAY
OH GOD KILL ME\
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| stolen thingy! |
[14 May 2007|01:21pm] |
yay, a mouse!
I like rats more...but a mouse is just as good :)
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[13 May 2007|05:56pm] |
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argh.....stupid essays.
penrhyn road libary is FULL....absolutely NO free space to study - and its a sunday!
damn me leaving it all to the last min AGAIN.....it seems everyone else is doing the same.
i have many thousands of words to write and very little time to do it in.
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| euroshite! |
[13 May 2007|12:14am] |
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Oh fuck them all......how did Ukraine not win?!
He/She looked like a twisted version of Sue Pollard wrapped in turkey foil....it was pure eurocamp genius!
Obviously the UK entry was also amazing.....it was full of very "subtle" homosexual cock innuendo. It should of been a hit...stupid block voting.
*rant over*
Christ, how sad am i? Instead of going out down the pub on a saturday night, like a normal student, i decided to stay in and watch The Eurovision Song Contest. Oh well, at least i saved money!
As i went out last night i have done nothing today....apart from nurse a hangover and rearrange my room.
I have done no work on this essay....due in on wednesday, so it looks like i will have too pull a double all nighter in the uni library on monday and tuesday. when will i learn NOT too leave my essays to the last min?!
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[11 May 2007|12:13am] |
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Feel better today, please excuse mood swings lol.
Did not get to sleep till bout 3a.m due to big rave/party next door. We all felt like geeks in our flat cos we were stuck inside doing our uni work. (we all have looming deadlines!) So yeah i really wanted to go party but was good and did work. Found myself cleaning a toilet at around 2:30a.m as i forgot we have cleaning checks this morning - gurgh, i will NOT miss that about halls next year!
Got up and watched Daily Politics on BBC. It made a change from my usual late morning dose of Ferne and Phill on ITV...but i thought Mr Blair finally anoucing when he was going to step down was some kind of mile stone political event that i had to be up too speed on.
It turns out that i dont care for politics in the morning....i would rather watch Ferne Britton soothe me awake with mindless shit chat about soaps, fashon and cooking advice etc. I am more of a Newsnight man.
Got dressed and decided to randomly go help Rosie put up her art exhibiton in the art studios.....was quite fun, her project is really good, its all about fairy tales, alice in wonderland, drugs and a lot of things in miniture....i dont quite know what it means, but then i am not an art student lol.
I finally got bored of been all "arty" so came back, played shithead with some giant playing cards, watched a load of Spaced DVDs in Eves room, sang a LOT to the likes of Adam and the Ants and Bonnie Tyler, had my tea and did a bit more work on my history essays. Thats preety much my day....
I think tomoz i will get up early(ish) and head down to the uni libary on Penrhyn Road and try get my assesments done.
All this work is such a shock to the system....i have not been on a night out for ages!
I think the pub is in order tomoz......
::EDIT::
OK, so its 3am and i am still awake.
I am browsing the internet for no reason and dancing around to motown music.
I really should be asleep...
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[10 May 2007|01:01am] |
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my head feels like its back where it was when i was 16.
today was so boring. my lectures are over now.....basicly i have finished my first year (its gone so quick!). I just have to do coursework.
today was so dull. its rained all day.
I was thinking today....what exactly am i doing with my life? i am SO lazy these days. I dont have a job, i have no motivation, i find uni work dull, i have hardly any money.......
Its like i have just forgoten all the dreams i had and lost all my ambition....and i am only 19! How the hell can i be jaded with life now when these are sposed to be the best years of my life?!
Everyone is pissing me off today....which is not good when you live in halls which are constantly full of people.
my love life is seriously down the shitter....i am bored of been single and just sleeping around. I find someone i seriously like and could have a relationship with for the first time in ages and it turns out they are just not intrested.I was basicly a few easy fucks and thats it, so i feel like a fool.
OK, now i am just rambling. I just feel so restless and pointless and ARGH.
I think i am just randomly deppresed today. If i was a women i would blame hormones for today.
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[03 May 2007|11:33am] |
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OH MY GOD.
FIVE DAYS TO WRITE MY FEATURE.
It turns out press offices only speak to you if you lie and say "hello, yes...i do write for the *insert well known newspaper/magazine here*..."
Did some vox-pops yesterday....was hellish. The people of Kingston have nothing intresting to say.
i have hardly any quotes.
I am spending all night in the 24 hour libary...i cant wait.
I must not fail my first year and be an accademic disaster.
In a few weeks its all over....no more assesments. If i just manage the stress and hold on for a bit longer i can make it without having a break down!
I have to organise some journalism work experiance for summer.
I have an exam in one hour in short hand. FUCK.
*panic attack*
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| Oh dear.... |
[22 Apr 2007|04:37am] |
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....I am drunk.
Back in Kingston.
I still need to unpack.
I basicly walked into flat...went to supermarket for food...went out got wasted.
I love uni.
My room is cold.
Saw Adan tonight. All is good. :)
*falls in drunken slumber on floor*
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[20 Apr 2007|05:48pm] |
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So what is the point in the tumble dryer if all of your clothes washing instructions say "DO NOT TUMBLE DRY"...
...OH GOD, i have turned into my Mother.
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[19 Apr 2007|11:21pm] |
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Oh yeah...i am quite shit at updating.
Easter break for me is almost over....get train back to London on Saturday.
Paid visit to Kingston last week and got the house sorted, we move in on 4th August - cant wait!
Its a really nice place, not to far from uni and the rent is quite cheap. It even comes with a balcony, a free lawn mower, a random giant table in the garden and a BBQ! Has five bedrooms...i am getting the smallest one, which is fine by me cos the rent is cheaper and i quite like small bedrooms lol. It has a living/dining room which is MASSIVE and has a giant TV that comes with the house. score. Two bathrooms and a small kitchen.....which comes complete with a random mouldy ironing board. ick.
Looking forward to leaving my skanky halls behind.
Although if i am not careful i may be leaving halls quicker than i planed....in my short visit back we had a random party (to celebrate getting the ace house)....anyway as the alcohol flowed people started lighting up cigs and smoking - this is not allowed in our flat. So security came in and saw peoples fag ends all over the flat and took all our room numbers down....so now, even though i did not smoke at all that night, i have to go to some poxy disaplinary meeting with halls management! So yeah i might just start crying and hope for the best....i already have one warning (for playing music "too loud" - pish!) so i hope to god i dont get evicted! I hate living in halls.
So far my easter break has basicly been a slag fest for me.....i guess i been going out on the town quite a lot, catching up with my friends at home etc....anyway i managed to sleep with three diffrent people within FOUR days. This practically makes me a rent boy. I would normally say its all harmless fun....but i feel a bit of a cunt cos i actuly REALLY like that Adam dude back in Kingston. How can someones sex life improve so much quite so quickly?!
So i was going to go out again tonight....but i guess i need a little break....at least till monday night when i get to go out with Adam!
Also - i am STILL smoke free (give or take one or two drunken slip ups.)!
Only now i think my lungs are clearing up all the disgusting tar i have been inhaling for the past few years....so i am all snotty and keep coughing up loads of shit from my chest. YUCK.
At least i managed to quit before the smoking ban starts in summer...
Still not started my uni work...i am a BAD student.
I have started my CV though, i am determined to get a job for summer. Then when i am earning i can start saving money to do a year of uni in San Fransico!
I got a letter today asking if i wanted to join the local gym. Oh god, i've been laughing about that all day.
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| home! |
[09 Apr 2007|05:53pm] |
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Well, i lied, turns out i wont be away from the intermet for three weeks.
I am still at home, and my mother still refuses to pay for internet....but all this no longer matters cos now i can go online "al fresco" lol.
Basicly i praise the wonders of wireless net access....with my laptop i can hook onto sum dudes wireless network cos its unsecured - fecking jackpot! One catch tho....i am only in range of this unsecured network when i am sat on the bench at he very bottom of my garden....so basicly i have to go outsde....and its quite cold today - ah well!
This may be illegal.....but then again its a crime that i dont have the internet at home.
I been home exactly a week now, its nice....i get to see all my friends and family...and my dogs - at last!!! So far i have failed to do any coursework as i planned too, but i been busy everyday catching up with friends so i guess i will have to do it later. (or not...)
In other news:
* I need a job
* I preety much quit smoking
* Got phone call on friday from headed tenancy....we have been offerd a house! Its on a place called Villiers Close...not far from where my halls are at the moment, so thats good news. Only problem is we all have to be there to view the house before Friday....so need arange a viewing time and at some point treck all the way back down London to view the house....the come all the way back home for the rest of my easter brek. ARGH....going to uni so far from home is costing me a bomb in train fares! Although i will probs get to see Adam for a bit this week if i am off back to Kingston...yay!
Anyway....my fingers are going numb and i think its bout to rain so i am going to go inside now.
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[02 Apr 2007|03:01pm] |
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oh fuck i missed my train....i woke up late and am now running round like a mad man trying to pack. I am going to have to pay for a new train ticket now - rawh!
Went to see fall out boy last night....was crazy cool! <3 Mr Stump seems to be able to sing a lot better live these days. The support bands were really good aswell, i recomend Shiny Toy Guns - shit name, good band.
I will update better on that when i have time.
Anyway i have no net access at home, so you can all say goodbye to me for three weeks. xo
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[29 Mar 2007|01:40am] |
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OH MY GOD I WANT TO SCREW HIM AGAIN.
now.
I screwed the hottest person ever on monday night. I had the best sex ever. I was off my face on booze and weed and it was mind altering and was the most unbeatable sex of my life.
On monday i randomly brought a guy home. I was already pissed out of my face then i smoked a big joint and i had the best high of my life. We were in Savs room and she turned off her lights and put on her strobe light.....this completely fucked my head up and i had the most bizzare sensations. Amid the flashing lights and wastedness i got on this dude on the bed - seriously the best kisser i have ever got off with. Then later everyone left the room so we had sex with a strobe light flashing and the cd player playing some crazy hardcore trance music.
The most strangely wonderful sexual experiance lol.
I simply had to tell someone. I cant tell anyone here cos i doubt sav would be too happy about me fucking away in her bed lol.
Only problem is i have to go home on monday for THREE WEEKS and he lives in kingston.....damn. He's already invited me to go out on monday and i had to say no cos i am going home. ARGH. three weeks of sexual frustration.
life is gooooooooooood :)
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| I am a stinky boy |
[19 Mar 2007|01:12pm] |
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I really should have a shower and get dressed then buy some food. I have none.
That fucking Ian guy text me AGAIN last night....
Seriously, why is it the ones you are not intrested in says they "love" you, then the ones you want to screw are just not intrested in you?!
He is a headfuck and makes me feel bad for not liking him back. fucker.
I think he might start stalking me soon :|
Also, me and Rachel (friend who lives in flat upstairs who is one of people i will be sharing new house with) have a strange thing going on right now......everytime we are drunk we always end up getting on each other and kissing. Then other week the next morning when we were sober i told her to stop doing it, cos we are just friends etc and its slightly strange....so she did. Anyway on friday when i was hammerd we were both drunk just talking in my room and then there was like a long and painful pause and it happened AGAIN! Only this time she was like "you know the reason i keep getting on you when i am drunk is cos i actuly really like you...."
I did not know what to say, then the next day it was like it never happend lol!
Its all very confusing.
Tonight i shall be off to Bar Eivissa in Kingston.....i love that place. The best music and the best people, and cheap drinks! :)
I have a new found love for gym class heros!
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| St Patty Day |
[18 Mar 2007|03:54am] |
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So i just got home from the mad alcohol fuled fake irishness that is st patricks day.
I realised, whilst downing a shot of vodka, that its slightly twisted how we celebrate the day of a religious figure - a saint, by getting absolutely blind drunk! Surely we are all going to hell for blasphamy?
Also, saint patrick was english.
Why do english people celebrate the national day of ireland, yet completely ignore st georges day?
Why did random people in the street tonight have obviously fake irish accents in vein attempts to pull some slag?
Anyway, went out and i hated it. The crowd was shit, full of chavs, slags and drunken wankers been pointlessly violent. Its like a random load of drunk wankers were shipped into kingston for the day.
My friend got smacked in the face, i was witness to a full on pub brawl....with police and everything, all to the merry tune of "The Irish Rover".
The world disapointed me today, i think i lost a little faith in the good of human nature....random acts of drunken violence, (if alcohol makes you angry, why would you drink it?!) arful racism to the man in the takeaway and i saw some CUNT spit on a harmless homeless person, cos the homeless man asked for a few spare coins.
People are shit......i think i love animals more than humans. I wish my dog Jake was here, i can moan at that dude for hours and he always listens....he will just wag his tail, put his giant paw on my knee and make me smile again. I even miss him jumping on me at 6a.m EVERY morning to wake me up and take him for his morning walk.
My dog is the best :)
I MISS JAKE!
xo
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